NEXT

finally ,, i know what come to me next!!!!
bad luck again...
what happen to me????
i also dont know...

INCORRECT PIN NUMBER
this was what i saw when i wanted to withdraw money from ATM BANKISLAMwith my
UM kopcard..
wth....
this is just never happen before,, but why suddenly??
i had tried for 2 times,, the results were same.. kc them said if the 3rd time,,
my card will be eaten..haha..
so what to do???
will be headed to BSN and BANKISLAM next week to settle my rm300 and my ATM CARD

hope nothing bad will happen to me again....

MAD MAD MAD

how i gonna live!!!!!!!!!!!!
without water!!!
without wifi!!!!!!!!!
i gonna mad soon.. very soon...
done badly in my test......
hilang rm 300
hilang my pencil case
hilang my calculator
awake at 2.30 am for latihan kebakaran..- siao geh-
scaryyyyyyyyyyyyyy thunder now!!!!!
what gonna happen to me next??????
all of things mess up........

真实的我

射手女生可能永远也不会知道自己想要的是什么，但是她一直都很清楚，她不想要的是什么。　　　　她总喜欢做幕后的看客，冷冷地，静静地看着一切，在她眼里，一切都在她的意料之中，她并不觉得有什么是新奇的， 如果她表现得新奇，那是因为她觉得应该这样做。她像一个看戏的人，永远置身事外。　　　　
你不要责怪她冷漠，这是她保护自己的唯一方式。她像一只刺猬，随时竖起自己身上的刺，但她的刺不会伤人，她只是用来武装自己。　　　　
她不敢要太多的爱，她怕享受完爱之后，剩下的只是加倍的痛。所以当别人对她过度宠爱时，她不但不会欣喜，反而会惊惧地逃走，她不知道怎样回报别人对她的爱， 如果你得到她的喜爱，那是因为她已经知道如何面对，如何回报了。　　　　
她追求那种君子之交淡如水的境界。　　　　
她懂得爱人，但她不习惯爱人，她知道爱往往伴随着恨，而恨，是太沉重的伤痛， 也是太容易让人疲倦的感情。她不想痛，也就懒得去恨，于是，为了防范恨与痛的到来， 她只好选择不爱，即使爱，也是淡淡的，冷冷的。别怪她，她是真的不知道如何专注。　　　　
她有时也很虚伪。不要指责她，她之所以选择虚伪，那是你勉强她做她不愿做但又拒绝不了的事， 她不习惯承诺，也不懂得拒绝，她最擅长的是难为自己。她不想你难过，只好令自己难过。　　　　
她总是固执地认为自己有超乎寻常的承受力，她将自己想得太坚强，而把别人想得太脆弱。 她老是担心自己的行为会让别人受到伤害。她不知道，受伤的其实是自己。只是她不知道如何表现出来， 她迷糊得像别人所认为的那样，将自己当成一个百毒不侵的人。　　　　　　
别以为她很洒脱，很多时候，她其实是放不下的-——她比任何人都要敏感，都要细腻，但她不会让你知道，她明白，即使你知道了，也是无济于事。 她的心是把握不住的风，她渴望像风一样单纯而自由。　　　　
她不是不想平静， 她只是找不到平静的理由，她一生都无法明确自己在人世要扮演的角色，她只有不停地寻求，寻求自己最终的目的。　　　　
如果她找到了，她会毫不犹豫地停下来， 从此放弃心灵的漂泊。很遗憾，她永远也不会满足，她的追求永不停止。她的心再累，无法逼迫自己放弃梦想，梦想是她唯一的支撑点。　　　　千万别让她失望。因为她学不会原谅，她非常渴求完美，虽然她知道世间没有绝对的完美， 但，她有绝对追求完美的执着。你若令她失望，她会不可挽回地离开，即使她的心在滴血，即使痛楚重得要压垮她的生命，她也绝不回头。　　　　　　
那个时候，你在她脸上所看到的，是让人寒心的决绝。即使她还在你的身边，她的心也早就离你十万八千里，你看不到她的恨，但是你会感受到比恨还让人痛苦的冷淡。她的离开是心灵的离开。　　　　
她可以在前半分钟对你好得让你受宠若惊，也可以在后半钟冷漠得让你不可接受。不要问她为什么这样善变，她也不知道。当你看到她在疯狂地快乐或悲伤时，千万不要迷惑，不管她看起来是多么的疯狂，她内心其实是冷静的，她比你们任何一个旁观者更知道如何处理快乐与悲伤，她只是习惯-——也可以说是喜欢将一切都变得疯狂。　　　　
因为她觉得这是义务，也是权利，她是制造气氛的能手，她的一句俏皮话会让一切轻快起来，但她的一声叹息又会将一切都弄得很沉重。她总是不由自主地交错操纵着快乐与忧郁.　　　　她并不如你们看到的那么快乐，同样，也不如你们看到的那么忧伤，只是，她忧郁时， 喜欢带上快乐的面具，而当她快乐时，忧郁又不肯轻易放过她。　　　　
在她的世界里，盛着的不是快乐的源泉，而是她不愿在人前滴下的泪水。你看到的她，笑起来像一个孩子，你有时会认为她天真得像是童话里走出来的天使。但是，你若有心，你会看到她沉静时脸上挥之不去的忧伤，还有她的眼底，竟那么凝重地积压着一种看破红尘的味道。她只有在午夜无人的时候，才会完全地释放自己。她不会在众目睽睽之下表露她的无助，她的彷徨，她的沧桑。　　　　
她心里的，是永远流不尽的泪。你所看到的坚强，只是她在竭力掩饰的脆弱。

我只想告诉你们，， 我不是你们想象中坚强。
我也会有脆弱的时候，，只是不让你们看见。。

who I am?!

2 sem of my uni life is started for about one months ..
but i am stil hanging around..
din touch my tutorials..
din study my notes..
sleeping in lecture hall..
dreaming while tutorial classes..

but this is me... the lazy me!!!
i am still lazy as before..
nothing change...

CALCULAS 2 test is coming tommorow..
but i still not touch it yet,,,...
seeing my coursemates all around me done their works nicely..
make me feel guitly..
the worse is after feeling guitly,, i still carry on the same me...
maybe i don't have any stress??
yea.. i admit that i seldom stress up..
i just enjoy my life everyday without any worries...
if my works not done,,.. i just laugh laugh and let it passssss..
should i change??
or just remain the same me...
can i remain the same for my 3 years uni life???
can i get what i wish to if remain the lazy me??

i had carried on this lazy lifestyle for 19 years ...
do i need a change now???
because i am considering to take SOA external paper this year..
i really hope i can cope with it..
really really hope..

WHAT I WANNA SAY IN THE LAST IS

who I Aam?!
CHAN YAN XING IS STILL THE LAZY HER!!!!
nothing change for now..
future is a ??

and one more,,
please stop guessing...=p

HE QUIT IN A SUDDEN

ya.. i am talking about LINDAN..
he quit from MALAYSIA OPEN 2010.. what the...
i really hope to watch him play in MALAYSIA..
why?????

i have bought the tickets for semi and final!!!!!
i only want watch him but not others...
it is meaningless if he dont come...
really feel upset....

sad sad sad....
only SAD can describe my feeling now....
i thought i can watch him get champion...
but now....
wondering should i go for the tournament now???

my friends are laughing at me now...

I'm LOVING IT

I enjoy the match today sosososo much..
they give their best in the match..
4th basketball men team is just awesome...

i can feel that they really in the match today..
no more dreaming...
i just love it...
shouting till sore throat...

he and he did a great job..

SHOUTING MADLY

4th college basketball match .. vs 11th college..
lost to them..
but an interesting match..
shout n shout for 4th!!!!!!
he is just too good in basketball..

an exciting match...

ohh ya.. is men match.. not women...
wondering how is the match for us next week???

whole DAY

not feeling happy
not feeling good
not feeling ...

moody whole day..
sleepy whole day..
hungry whole day..

listening to 寂寞出租and机会 whole day..
staring at my tutorials whole day..

waiting the time to passssss

FROM RING 2009-2010

hi my friends ....... Happy New Year 2010 ... ..and now we all are stepping into 20 years old....hahaha.......we know each others about 13 years already ..WOW ...quite a long period !!!! Every moment that we pass together still all in my mind and heart, i cant n never forget them.....either happiness or sadness, ups and downs....we already went through hardly...and i now still can flash back all the scene we went through together just like watching the best movie in my life....bits and pieces..slowly appear in my mind.....let us recall back those scene ^__^ the moment in school, tuition class (mr yip, mr foo class), during outing...ohh....i can feel the sweetness all the sudden in my heart now...dont u all ??? i very appreciate n miss during our high school life..we eat, talk, laugh, sleep, ponteng, yamcha together....mamak stall is our best place for chit chating...gossiping...laughing loudly without caring our image...hahaha ^^ that feeling was so so so warm...just like a happy big family in my heart =) And now im thinking back those jokes and "fei hua" we said b4, our acting skills in front others ppl, funny and crazy actions, exaggerate's laughing sounds, crazy dance and singing skill..wahahaha... ( damn stupid n funny actually )....Dears ,Time will pass, and we all will grow older and mature...2010 ady~ dont sigh..all of us will facing new hope, new target and new life for sure~ We will going to different place to continue our studies and its hard to gather again...either overseas or local...we must contact and maintain the friendship forever n forever....i believe we can do it ^___^ When feel lonely or having tough days, i will thinking about u all... strength, energy come towards me and it can help me a lot to go through all things that suffering me..Sometimes, my tears coming down... just like a pail of golden tears.....inside the pail contains the message of missing n loving u all that i hope can deliver to u all at the first time.... hmmm ...... luckly, i still have keep pictures that we take together last time...they help me a lot when i feel lonely man ~ hahaha .......I must repeat once again that : I VERY APPRECIATE OURS TRUE FRIENDSHIP FOR SO MANY YEARS....im so happy...the happiness and sweetness from u all always longer stay in my heart.......Dears, Babes, .........Have a nice years....

Vven : hope u can have a wonderful and enjoyable life in Aus... although is hard ,i think u sure can cope up with the new environment and people at there..good luck in ur studies there ....cheers ^^

YanXing : this little cute girl , smart but lazy... dont always think about foods ok ..think more about love ....haha....hope u can have a relationship in this new year...and also do well in ur studies ^^

Eevon : dark and skinny girl...haha....1st sem gonna start already.. have fun in IMU, dont study too hard but study smart...Try to enjoy your life in new college...ur course maybe hard to study but just try ur best sweet heart ^^

ChunPing : Miss, dont always gap lui ....there are always have 4 pretty girls stay beside u, right..so just see us enough already..haha...ping ar ping....u are the best in my mind....stay strong and dun give up for everythings.....studies and love ..perhaps...haha....my dearest friend ^^

JiaWei : wei wei ar wei wei ...... miss me ? aiks ..dun miss me ..i noe u want to buy a pelapung and come here to visit me....just call me when u want to swim to here..ok..I will go to the river to fetch u ...haha....UTAR is ur best choice forever.. good luck and do well in ur studies..and hope this year u can having a sweet relationship with new gf ^^

that's all for today.....stay happy and have a nice year..Happy New Year 2010 .....Remember always : No matter what , We all still are the Best Friends Ever ... Cheers ^__^

From : Love Ring


oh!! i really miss them!! miss all the time with them.. i feel wanna cry when i saw the notes written by RING on the facebook.. although its just a short note,, but i really touched by it.. i want to countdown with all of them but i know it is impossible at this time.. all of us are separate due to our studies.. REALLY MISS YOU GUYS!!TAKE CARE AND HAVE A WONDERFUL NEW YEAR EVENTHOUGH I AM NOT BY YOUR SIDE^^

14TH OF DECEMBER 2009

JUST WANT TO WISH ME happy birthday!!! =p
woke up at 8.15am ,
headed to SONSTAR
stay in front my lappy 8.30am,
ready for registration courses for SEM29.00am sharply,,,
login my account and type GTEE1102 ( english )9.03am til 10.30am,,,
continued registration but cant register for SXEX1410 TITAS..

after finishing,, i only realised CGPA for SEM1 was out!! just on the top of the page..
nothing surprise as i knew my grades for all subjects earlier.. 5A 1A-..
what can i say for my result?? satisfy??unsatisfy??
actually i felt quite sad when my APK got A- ,since i wish to get all As ..

many some of you might think that my result is just good enough,,
but i dont really satisfied!!
i do put high hopes in every exams i done from standard one til now..
and i seldom feel dissapointed about it..
but this time ...
my CGPA 3.96.. not perfect as what i want..

ENJOYABLE OUTINGS WITH MY LOVELY FRIENDS THIS FEW WEEKS.. GONNA MISS THEM SO MUCH!!